Howdy?

So turns out, my life is actually too interesting to blog about.


A million things have changed in just one year. I can't wrap my head around it. I can't write about it. I should go to counselling, but something is stopping me.  Maybe it's because I believe if I don't admit that something happened... it'll go away? The memory will fade and I can go on like it didn't happen. As if the psychological aspect of it wasn't enough, I now have physical reminder.

I can't concentrate.  I'm not motivated.  I'm just numb.

I feel beyond worthless.

But it's not my fault, right?
Just keep telling me that.
I swear to God, I may never believe you.

Because I know,
Deep down,
You think I'm an idiot,
You blame me just as much as I blame myself.

So I'm gonna pretend everything is fine. Time heals all, so I've heard.